ADHD and my non-medicated coma

ADHD is a bitch. Yeah imma start with that. What a weird thing to have. I've had ADHD my whole life. My parents had no idea what adhd was (like most parents from my generation) so naturally I went through the ringer of trials of different medications. Something is wrong with him, he's different. Oh he has adhd, ok let's medicate. There are tons of meds that could help, we just need to find the right one that works for him! Try this pill, try that pill. This one is all natural, this one is homeopathic, oh try the sugar pill its marvelous.

Those first few years Sucked, bad. At one point they had me on this one pill that if I missed taking one, it made me violently sick. Then they found out that it was killing kids from the side effects, so that one was a bust. Eventually I settled on Ritalin and that worked for a long while. Things got much better. In my young adult years I switched to Adderall and then stayed on that all through my 20's, 30' and into the beginning of my 40's.

Then the shit hit the fan. Hello High Blood Pressure. Wtf is that? Ya mean that shit that old people talk about? Yeah no thanks, im good. Well turns out I had it and things were not good.

Between a flood of bad habits I've picked up over the years, smoking, drinking red bulls like I should have been drinking water, eating too much, lack of exercise and the Adderall....High Blood Pressure hit me hard. I was forced to stop taking it. (And change the bad habits).

This is when the " non-medicated coma" began. In total I was off my medication for my adhd for about 5 years. I had to start taking BP pills, kill my bad habits and make changes. Although I eventually did, and successfully changed the bad habits (un-medicated which is incredible) it took me 5 years for all of it. I quit smoking, stopped drinking redbull, changed my eating habits, started exercising and lost weight. My BP finally started getting back to normal.

Now I find out (and became open to) taking new medications for my adhd. I'm not a fan of pharmaceutical companies or taking any pills, but I've realized its necessary for certain things.

I found out I could take meds for the adhd and take one for the BP and once I figure out the right doses, they should all be merry and everything will play nice together in balance.

Ughh Fine, so I jump in. After a short minute...Holy Shit! What's happening, where have i been, what the ever fuck?!? Let me tell you, being un-medicated with severe adhd for 5 years, then jumping back on medication is like waking up from a fucking coma. (Sorry to anyone who has been in a real coma and woken up, I don't really know what that is like). But damn. It's like I have the memories of the last 5 years, working my ass off, doing all these things but going nowhere. Its like the wheels have been spinning and smoking, but the car wasn't movin.

What the hell have I been doing the last 5 years? It's the craziest feeling. Not in a good way either. It's so weird to feel alive and awake again and like you've been asleep for so long. Such a weird feeling. I'm over the moon to be back into clarity and focus but damn what a rough ride. I definitely wish I had figured this out 5 years ago.

Now it feels like a race to catch up! Quickly I've realized I've created a lot of new bad habits over these 5 years. I have a huge list of things I've been trying to do for so long, that now I can actually finish and follow through on, including charging these bad habits. All Things I can easily figure out now, that before seemed so hard to see or figure out.

I wish I didn't have ADHD, it's a bitch. I wish my brain worked fine without the medicine, but it doesn't. But at least there are solutions that correct the struggles, and finding the right ones are crucial and worth it! Thankfully im able to even get these medications, as so many people can't! Some day I'd love to help those who can't get adhd meds get them. Hopefully for people much sooner in life too!

ADHD does bring some benefits to my life, a different skill set and bonuses....but that's a different story.

Until then, it's got mad things to do!! Much Love! Stay humble! Be Famous AF!

~Elvis